What I need…

Is to stop eating through this sadness. I am struggling with my eating.  So badly.  I cannot believe how fast the fat is coming back.  My jeans hurt.  They are too tight on the waist and hips. Yuck.  And my muffin top…YIKES!  And the weather just keeps getting warmer.  Less clothing to hide behind. I [...]

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Feeling left out

For those of you who don’t actually know me in real life, I assure you, I’m actually a good person.  I think of others, don’t hit my kids or kick my pets.  I volunteer, I donate money to charity.  I let people cut in front of me in the car, I even let people cut [...]

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Beautiful

My mother was on one side of her.  My grandfather on the other. Her breathing had been getting worse.  She had deteriorated quickly over her last hours. She had 8 very bad breaths.  They were quite laboured, but she wasn’t in pain. She turned to my mother and smiled. Then she was gone I love [...]

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She’s gone

I sat down to post that I’d learnt that she had less than 48 hours to live. Then the phone rang. It was my dad. Nana is gone.  Died peacefully. I miss her already.  I’ve been missing her for years as the dementia and mental illness set in.  But now the Nana I knew will [...]

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Cooking up a storm

I spent 3 and a half hours yesterday making a huge pot of spaghetti sauce, letting it cook for a while as I put the kids to bed, then made 3 large lasagnas and 2 small lasagnas.  I had enough sauce left over for 5 spaghetti dinners. I have 2 chicken carcasses boiling in a [...]

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Caring for the caregiver

My mother has decided to bring my grandmother home to die. This was a hard choice for her to make. My grandmother’s mental health has been suffering, and she can be really quite grumpy and angry. But my grandmother asked. And my mother has made it happen. Within a couple of days she has my [...]

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From the mouths of babes

In a store this weekend, I fell into a pregnancy discussion with another customer.  We were talking about how dogs need good manners.  The customer is a mail carrier, and complained of owners getting upset when their dogs get maced.  I told of a time a dog jumped up on me when I was pregnant, [...]

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What a difference 24 hours makes

We had a GREAT day.  Everyone was wonderful, making an effort. My partner and I had a sit-down last night about the top 3 pissing-us-off-behaviours, and what we can do about them. We came up with plans, I implemented them today, and we got off to a good start.  We went to the market, bought [...]

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Bugger of a day

You know you are going to have a tough day when it starts with one child up half the night, another one waking at the crack of dawn and the third one waking up and cuffing siblings on side of head before breakfast. I definitely wanted to crawl back under the covers and pass out [...]

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Weight loss on an island

I work with post partum mothers. They are all emotional and overwhelmed. This is not a criticism at all. Of course they are emotional and overwhelmed. They have just had a baby. Or two. One of the reasons for the overwhelmedness is that every which way they turn, they are hit with advice, suggestions, or [...]

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