I seem to have misplaced it on vacation. Seriously, at my never-ever weight, I have my waist back. Not svelt or anything a gossip magazine would want published, but it is there. I like it when my partner touches me there, I’m even up for sex. If you have a waist, you see, you can’t [...]
Archive for the ‘depression’ Category
Has anyone seen my waist?
Posted in depression, eating, weight loss on August 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Thinking Thin
Posted in depression, emotional eating, food, weight loss on July 3, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I have been struggling so much lately. You all know that. I needed my Knight to get the rescue started with a kick in the ass. But truly, getting back on track falls to me. It really does. I ultimately control what comes in the house, what meals are made, what treats are baked and [...]
Bravery
Posted in depression, weight loss on June 9, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Sylvain rocked my world today. See how brave he is here. Me? I was a little bit brave. I decided it was too *&^$*(ing hot to wear my tank top. I love my tank tops. I wear them under my shirts. It helps hide my muffin top. But the heat….too much. I long for skinny [...]
Success comes in small packages
Posted in depression, weight loss on June 3, 2008 | 3 Comments »
No bingeing today. Called my partner at work whenever I had nasty terrible thoughts, or was considering cracking open a bag of chocolate chips. I’m sure less work was done at the office today, but it has increased my self esteem. Was with the kids ALL DAY ALONE <cringe>. But we made it. My friend [...]
the calm after the storm
Posted in depression, weight loss on June 2, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Today was better. Perhaps is was the unexpected phone call from a friend inviting herself and her kids over for an outside in the forest play date. Perhaps it was the great weather. Perhaps it was the dinner for today already made last night. Perhaps it was the cleaning lady, who came to do my [...]
broken down
Posted in antidepressants, depression, natural child birth, weight loss on June 1, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I had a huge break down today. I forgot to take my meds last night (fell asleep putting monsters to bed), and boy oh boy does it make a difference for me. I had a terrible headache, I was panicky. I felt better once I realized *why* I was feeling so crappy. But the day [...]
Freakin’ Lapses…
Posted in binge, bulimia, depression, eating, weight loss on May 20, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I have had a brutal week or two. I can’t seem to get my head out of my butt. I have been eating everything that isn’t tied down. I have even planned and had some binges. I battled the urge to purge for an hour on Friday, finally it passed when my partner came home [...]
Mood stabilized
Posted in antidepressants, depression on May 7, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I have spent a good chunk of my life battle various forms, types, severities of depression. I am not ashamed of that. I am normally quite good at reading my body and my mind, and know when I need the help of antidepressants. I am also not ashamed of needing antidepressants. However, I *prefer* not [...]
